Why?...

her eyes seem so innocent... she's a beauty unlike any other... u get goosebumps wenever u're with her... its more like comin out of a freezer after a long time... da heart suddenly warms, & u've no clue wats goin on in ur mind... u cud stare @ her all day long & not realise how much time has passed by... but then, u realise da one thing u don wanna kno... u cant hav her... da sight of her smile wen with another makes ur heart ache... its not a jealousy, but a sadness... ur heart constantly get torn apart as u cant let go of a simple but painful fact... u hold bak jst to c her happy & with a fear of losin her if she finds out... ppl say da truth wud set us free... so why hold bak?... why not pour ur heart out to her?...

my frends kno me as (or atleast say they kno me as) fun, a li'l pervertd, nice & carin guy who talks quite a lot... if it was 2 or 3yrs earlier... i'd b not so fun, a bit quiet guy who gets angry real easy... only a few kno dat i was once like dat, since nowadays my anger is shown in rare ocassions, but dat also is different from how it was xpressd earlier... frends i've made later on doesnt see me as da angry type cox i've learnd to control in sumwat... though its convertd to sumthin i don think is dat gud... chatterin more than most guys wud isnt sumthin even i like... though i jst had to learn to control my anger, which sadly had to b by talkin so much dat there wudnt b much energy for my so called 'rage'...
seems like its due to this dat wenever i seem quiet, everyone thinks im not feelin well or im too depressed... so im kinda stuck with whoever i am right now... da person dat all my frends made me into... da idiot who thinks he's da worst guy from all da ppl he knows... but i think its a bit sure dat i wudnt even b among da 'ok' ones... since im jst da guy listnin in & crackin up with others jokes, rather than makin up jokes... da guy who doesnt kno wat to do & mostly ends up in doin sumthin stupid... da guy who doesnt kno wen to stop or wen to start... so seems like it wudnt b much of a lie wen i say im da one of da worst guys, even though i myte b a "nice guy"...
lets c how life goes if i am to b like this