answer before question

all in all... frendship is abt havin fun, trustin eachother &... sum other stuff :s
wen u 4get who u r, u go to ur frends & family... u ask them abt urself, to again understand who u were & who u r... they'd giv answers & u go with it, since u kno u trust (or atleast once trustd) them... but @ certain points u realise, dat askin da questions sumtimes provides u with jst answers... not da honest ones... u get to kno this fact wen u least expect it, wen ur frends come to tel things on their own, rather than answer wen u ask them... though it myte not b a nice couple of phrases or sentences to here, it mostly is how they think of u & who they think u r...
sum ppl b4 understandin all these, believe in wat their frends say & b who they say... its sumthin dat only a handful of ppl kno b4 they try to b sumone who they r not... frendship is all abt honesty... its them dat u can really trust... not da dishonest ones

from one to another

da nightmare in da form of a long borin holiday is abt to end... & da last 6 months of another nightmare called skool is abt to begin... lets c if i cud b a "nerd" 4 these last months of educational torture

Dhiraagu... Life's Good, Share it!

ur lack of respect 4 others will make u a lonely man, even though u don realize dat u don respect others privacy... bein too stubborn eventually makes u a heartless bastard who cud rip apart sumone's heart without a sweat... there r few but very effective qualities dat cud destroy ur life... these things usually tend to occur due to lack of self awareness of oneself... so havin faith in urself & trustin urself is da 1st step in redemption... without it, u cant hav faith in others & trust any of 'em, even if they r trustworthy...
life's simple... it's u who make it complicating

its easy to get heartbroken... its easy to break a heart too...
but its not easy to break a heart wen its one u don wanna break...

Why?...

her eyes seem so innocent... she's a beauty unlike any other... u get goosebumps wenever u're with her... its more like comin out of a freezer after a long time... da heart suddenly warms, & u've no clue wats goin on in ur mind... u cud stare @ her all day long & not realise how much time has passed by... but then, u realise da one thing u don wanna kno... u cant hav her... da sight of her smile wen with another makes ur heart ache... its not a jealousy, but a sadness... ur heart constantly get torn apart as u cant let go of a simple but painful fact... u hold bak jst to c her happy & with a fear of losin her if she finds out... ppl say da truth wud set us free... so why hold bak?... why not pour ur heart out to her?...

my frends kno me as (or atleast say they kno me as) fun, a li'l pervertd, nice & carin guy who talks quite a lot... if it was 2 or 3yrs earlier... i'd b not so fun, a bit quiet guy who gets angry real easy... only a few kno dat i was once like dat, since nowadays my anger is shown in rare ocassions, but dat also is different from how it was xpressd earlier... frends i've made later on doesnt see me as da angry type cox i've learnd to control in sumwat... though its convertd to sumthin i don think is dat gud... chatterin more than most guys wud isnt sumthin even i like... though i jst had to learn to control my anger, which sadly had to b by talkin so much dat there wudnt b much energy for my so called 'rage'...
seems like its due to this dat wenever i seem quiet, everyone thinks im not feelin well or im too depressed... so im kinda stuck with whoever i am right now... da person dat all my frends made me into... da idiot who thinks he's da worst guy from all da ppl he knows... but i think its a bit sure dat i wudnt even b among da 'ok' ones... since im jst da guy listnin in & crackin up with others jokes, rather than makin up jokes... da guy who doesnt kno wat to do & mostly ends up in doin sumthin stupid... da guy who doesnt kno wen to stop or wen to start... so seems like it wudnt b much of a lie wen i say im da one of da worst guys, even though i myte b a "nice guy"...
lets c how life goes if i am to b like this

5 situations...

[1] she knows me... talks to me... but she doesnt think dat way abt me... i like her very much & sumtimes i even think dat i myte b IN LUV with her... but how & wat am i supposed to do?... mi othee vefa oiy gothakee... bolah nukulhadhaana...
[2] she's mad abt me... she says she's in love with me... i really liked her & later on sumhow did fall for her, though SHE broke things off... later on she kinda startd getn annoyin, cox she's still sayin she luvs me & misses me alot... i kinda don kno who she is :s... now wat?!...
[3] she's a beauty... i went crazy wen i 1st saw her... i got so nervous dat it took nearly 6hrs to go to talk to her da 4 da 1st time... but da sad thing is she is with sumone.... EHEN VIYAS, i jst cant get her off my mind!... mi dhen hama jehey kameh tha?...
[4] she's near perfect wen i think abt all common sense... rangalhu, molhu, madu maithiri, loabi, ehen ulhelaafa majaa... BUT i don seem to b into her dat much, & i don think even she'd b into me dat much... almost perfect eh kamaku mi huree vee varu... keeh ve baa?...
[5] she's really cute... lovely smile... seems like a gud gal... hangs out with frends... skips a couple of classes ehen ulhelaafa :P... she doesnt talk much to me though... so, i don think i've talkd with her much... so da ONLY thing i kno abt her is wat i've jst said... mi varun dhen kameh vaane tha?...