5 situations...

[1] she knows me... talks to me... but she doesnt think dat way abt me... i like her very much & sumtimes i even think dat i myte b IN LUV with her... but how & wat am i supposed to do?... mi othee vefa oiy gothakee... bolah nukulhadhaana...
[2] she's mad abt me... she says she's in love with me... i really liked her & later on sumhow did fall for her, though SHE broke things off... later on she kinda startd getn annoyin, cox she's still sayin she luvs me & misses me alot... i kinda don kno who she is :s... now wat?!...
[3] she's a beauty... i went crazy wen i 1st saw her... i got so nervous dat it took nearly 6hrs to go to talk to her da 4 da 1st time... but da sad thing is she is with sumone.... EHEN VIYAS, i jst cant get her off my mind!... mi dhen hama jehey kameh tha?...
[4] she's near perfect wen i think abt all common sense... rangalhu, molhu, madu maithiri, loabi, ehen ulhelaafa majaa... BUT i don seem to b into her dat much, & i don think even she'd b into me dat much... almost perfect eh kamaku mi huree vee varu... keeh ve baa?...
[5] she's really cute... lovely smile... seems like a gud gal... hangs out with frends... skips a couple of classes ehen ulhelaafa :P... she doesnt talk much to me though... so, i don think i've talkd with her much... so da ONLY thing i kno abt her is wat i've jst said... mi varun dhen kameh vaane tha?...

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egg-zaams feshijje kanneynge... did 2 islam paper today... one 1hr paper & one 2mins paper... hevva thankolhakee 7:15 ga feshi test nimunee 10:45 ga (half hour break eh e dheytherey)... enough time to barely do da 1st paper once & 2nd paper nearly 60 times :D... keke
anyway, test feshuneema dhen dhuvas gandakah baharu vumuge alaamaaiy tha fenidhaane... vai dhiri ulhun kuriah dhaane ekamu baraabarah... so don worry b happy... mioh gellunee!.....

IF

wat if i hadnt met anyone of my frends?... wat if i wasnt da hyper-active insane dude?... wat if i was a guy who doesnt kno anythin abt life?... wat then?...

consequences

rattehinna ekkoh majaa koh emmen ves ulheyne... meehun meehunaa dhimaa koh, joke jahaa, truth or dare kulhe, dhen ehen kanthah thah ves...
ekamu thimaa bunevey emme echchehge sababun e hurihaa kameh aneh athah alhaigen gosdhaane... mee mashah aammukoh vaa goiy... kommeves moya echcheh bunevigen, noonee molhu kameh koggen onnanee kada vefa... amilla meehaa sakaraaiy kollaa varu vefa...
ekamu majaa kuraa gadeega thimaa vareh nethumey bunyas dhogakah nuvaane... eki koosani sababu thakaa hure... e sababu thah thimaa kada vaa vaguthu thakuga hama jassadheyn rattehin ais kiyaane... dhen e vee ekan nimman
mi hurihaa kamakah kanneynge consequence ey kiyenee... ekamu dhen kuraane kameh neiy viyya... ginain kada kanthah kurevenya noonee kada vaa kahala echcheh bunevenya ulhen jehey haalathakee mee... dhiri ulhun onna gothakee mee... thimaage kuh thah rangalhu nukurevenya abadhuves ulheynee fahathuga... rattehinna kithamme ekee ulhunas kameh neyngi olhigen bunevunas dhen e nimunee e hisaabun :

Questions

am i ever goin to b gud enough?.. am i mature enough?.. why do i stil think abt her?... why is it jst thinkin abt her make me go crazy?... does she like me?... did she ever like me?... why is it dat i cant get over her?... am i worth livin this life?... hav i been an influence to anyone?... hav i been of any to her?...wat if i hadnt met her til now?... wud it change da fact dat i jst myte like her?... wud she like me if we met now?... how diferent wud i b from now if i hadnt met her then?... am i jst a crazy guy?... can i ever let go of her?... how can i free myself from this?... where do i belong?... who am i?...

long time no c

3 months... quite interestin not to blog after startin a blog jst for fun... i usually post useless stuff, or sum stupid stuff i wanna take off my mind... easier to take it out, though telin stupid stuff to ppl doesnt seem right... anyway, lets c how this blog goes...

broken...

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight

Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

I am here still waiting though

I still have my doubts

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes

That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain is there healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hanging on another day just to see what you will throw my way

And I'm hanging on to the words you say

You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone

I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to youI'm holdin' on

I'm holdin' onI'm barely holdin' on to you